Dontpretendtoknow

yet i have. i am still here. i didn't die. i'm still writing. i haven't put up anything new because i currently don't have a computer at home. but i still am collecting everything that i do with pen and paper because one day i know it will matter to someone. oh btw I GOT PUBLISHED. ON A WEBSITE. WORLDWIDE. that was like one of the proudest days of my life! i'm pursuing my journalism degree at ASU now, because i figured out while i was in jail that i want to be a copy-editor. i've been making a lot of new friends and major moves in the business world, making a name for myself as an entrepreneur and really showing off my management skills for bigger crowds. i threw my first desert rave and had security and a full night of D.J.s and it went pretty well, except for losing some money due to a less-than-average sized crowd for a friday night. that part was disappointing because now i have to make those promises for compensation come true when i don't even really have it. i will find a way to make that dough! my friends mean the world to me so i can't let them down! <3 Bone$

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"End Times" Prophesy

There are times for
Growth & Change
There'll be periods
                  it stays the same
Comprehend a major shift, and
The Meaning of a tidal rift
Within your dreams
                  and big, big plans
You often stall,
with shaking hands

A decade full of false inceptions
The records show whole recollections

There have been few
treasures life was measured against
There may come
an evaluation beyond present tense

i have the worst smelling gas right now. between del taco, beans & cheese, carne esada steak taco, & then thai food later, jeez i could fucking light a room on fire with all this methane! but my stomach hurts if i don't let it out, so i keep cutting the cheese. i start school in exactly a month [from yesterday, technically]... testosterone is coming soon, new workout, yoga, name change, moving into a new place in april which will hopefully be a much better upgrade. i'm getting sleepy & i have to work all day from noon to 8:30 p.m. was just sitting on youtube trying to get my brain tired again. i got like an hour sleep earlier but then my apartment was boiling hot even with the air on full blast, & two fans turned on i was sweating, just lying there. so i'm pretty excited for transition, physically. my family & friends are changing their attitudes toward me a lot, i'm letting go of my past with a little more ease than i would be for, as "her"... i miss my peeps in AZ but hopefully i will be able to take a trip down there soon to see them. i've got money pouring in now so just gonna keep workin' hard!!!

to let everyone, but mostly myself know how I am.

stressed, i have deadlines
- september PROFESSIONAL massage license needs to be renewed $100
-need to decide on an insurance company/get re-instated  BY NEXT MONTH $199
- chair massage CEU & "massage therapist" messenger bag $125 + $10


BUTTT I GOT A NEW JOB!!!
sorry i haven't been on here in forever. i do not work at massage envy on maplewood. i had that interview but they NEVER called me back. i am currently employed with XpresSpa @ Lambert Airport. i had to go thru badging with the fingerprints and intense background check.

SO i'm worried that when i change my name it's going to red-flag me & they're going to give me even more issues when i go thru security. i think that only really affects u when you get a passport tho. so i won't really be a traveler, until long after my name is changed. that's another thing too, getting my birth certificate & driver's license changed are going to be expensive. i don't even know how this whole process is supposed to go down. i really gotta make that phone call. tomorrow i will!

i'm so excited for my life as a transitioning Male to begin. i want to see how people treat me & take the time to stand up for social justice. i will also be putting myself in harm's way but hopefully i'll be sly enough to escape any danger. i want to build a huge community around me & have a reason or a purpose to stand up and defend my rights and my family...

getting the gear, binder, packer, testosterone, keeping up with it all will be a slight hassle that no bio guy would ever wish on anyone to deal with but it'll also give me a special insight, & i hope i'm never forced out of that interim between male and female because it's so easy to be androgynous with estrogen fueled cells. being a new boy will make this harder... i'm sorta paranoid to start using male bathrooms all the time. i want more tattoos & longer hair to hide the fact that i think my face is girly. i hope that changes, and my skin/hair, jawline, size of my eyes & nose, waistline, muscle girth... i want all of it to be bigger, more fierce, pierced & sexy without too much product or vanity. i want to be and to feel HOT again. or for the first time, cuz i don't know that i ever have. my masculinity is going to be so good for me, & so dangerous to any Haters out there...